I am having a really rough day. It’s just that I have a lot of work to finish, the house is a mess… and when I try to reorganize everything, Kelly finds something else to mess up. The little girl just won’t take a nap! This has been going on for days. Add to these the difficulty of moving around because of my pregnancy bump. The baby boy has grown so big! I don’t remember Kelly being this huge when she was in my tummy.
Now I am starting to wonder if I made the right decision when I let go of our house help. What was I thinking?! I must have convinced myself then that I was a supermom. I’m nowhere near being super.
Just earlier today, I shouted at Kelly. She was really testing my patience. She got a hold of a pack of wafers while I was checking my e-mails then she started breaking them into small pieces and scattered the crumbs around the house. I don’t know. I guess I got really annoyed when she laughed at me while I was explaining to her that what she did is wrong. And when I was cleaning up the crumbs, she went to the laundry bin and took out all the clothes.
Did I do something wrong for her to act that way? I’m starting to feel like I have failed at parenting. The little girl is becoming more and more… well, bratty.
I’m actually getting scared since I have another one on the way. Will I be able to handle it? One toddler is already making me go crazy, but two?!