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Burn Out, Uncertainties, & Trusting God

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Two weeks. We finally had two weeks of much needed rest from school. The whole family badly needed that break after getting sick over and over in the course of three weeks. I don’t think it’s the actual schooling that’s tiring, really. It’s the preparation that starts early in the morning despite The Princess’ call time being 12 noon, the drive to and from school, and work that has to be done late at night to give way for a bit of play time with the minis and bedtime stories. There is barely enough time for rest and leisure except on weekends.

But I’m not complaining. School is important and I cannot not work.

Hence I am thankful for mini vacations from routine like The Princess’ semestral break. Since we don’t have formal schooling to worry about, we had the chance to just enjoy our time. And we did–spending days painting, drawing, making music, dancing, and singing. I sort of miss how I used to have all the time in the world for the minis, but temporary sacrifices have to be made for something better soon.

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Soon. Everything will be better soon.

The last four months has been a challenging time for my family. There were issues we had to fix and a mountain of uncertainties and anxieties that filled our hearts and minds. There are moments that everything just becomes too heavy to bear that I snap at my husband or lose patience with the minis. Sometimes, I get angry at myself for not trying harder, or planning better. Perhaps if I did, it wouldn’t be this hard.

“Trust in Him at all times, O people; pour out your heart before Him; God is a refuge for us.” (Psalm 62:8)

But then I remind myself that nothing is permanent; not even our troubles. I just have to stop running away from it and just go through it. I just need to surrender and trust that God has it all figured out.

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Because He already got things figured out.

Today, The Princess starts a new semester in school. I love new beginnings. They give me this feeling of being pulled out of the water and taking a breath for the very first time after holding it for so long. I know this marks the start of busy days ahead, but it also means that we our nearing our goal.

And so I welcome this fresh start with open arms, an open mind, and more importantly, an open heart.

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24 Comments

  • Reply Katherine Rose Coronel- Rivera

    Everything’s gonna be okay and alright. I always pray for guidance and patience to get through all the problems in ife. We need to be strong and be postive for our love ones.

    November 14, 2014 at 3:00 PM
  • Reply Mitch Ryan (@mitchryan23)

    I can totally relate. Our mornings and evenings are total chaos. It feels like I ‘ve been standing the whole day.

    November 8, 2014 at 10:06 PM
  • Reply Camille

    just keep walking Kim. despite all the hard times. because it always is the hardest when we get the closest to our goals… :D

    November 8, 2014 at 4:49 AM
  • Reply Celerhina Aubrey

    Hugs. Just continue to trust the lord for every worry, heartaches and pains. Everything will be alright, soon.

    November 7, 2014 at 3:37 AM
  • Reply Nicole Paler

    Trust god in all your struggles. He’s gonna show you the way. good luck! :D

    November 6, 2014 at 3:46 PM
  • Reply karenmeetsworld

    Sending you virtual hugs. :) and believe that there is always silver lining.

    November 6, 2014 at 9:42 AM
  • Reply Peachy @ The Peach Kitchen

    I think I totally understand your situation because we are currently filled with uncertainties and anxieties too. We just pray everyday and hope for everything to fall into place soon.

    November 6, 2014 at 6:13 AM
    • Reply Kim Reyes

      Prayer can really do wonders. :) It has gotten us through so many challenges! And I know that through prayer, God will lift up all our troubles.

      November 6, 2014 at 6:54 AM
      • Reply Peachy @ The Peach Kitchen

        I agree! And with that we had this vow to go to Quiapo church every saturday and hear mass there aside from our ususal sunday mass at the church near our home..

        November 6, 2014 at 7:27 AM
  • Reply Que Sullano - Gavan

    There will always be a rainbow to remind us of hope! All will be well soon in His time. Hugs Kim!

    November 5, 2014 at 6:49 PM
  • Reply Maan

    Thank you for the morning inspiration, Kim! I don’t know what you’re going through, but yes, trust God for He has a plan. I don’t know if everything (as in every single thing) will be better soon because life is unpredictable but let’s rejoice in the fact that God knows us and knows what is good for us!

    November 5, 2014 at 10:01 AM
    • Reply Kim Reyes

      Indeed! I am lifting up all to Him. :)

      November 6, 2014 at 6:56 AM
  • Reply nhessie a.

    “Trust in Him at all times, O people; pour out your heart before Him; God is a refuge for us.” (Psalm 62:8)

    this is an inspirational post. i pray that you will find comfort through God specially when you go through uncertainties.

    November 5, 2014 at 1:24 AM
  • Reply darlene

    we mommies sometimes worry a lot about the now. but there are things that God alone can control and there are things that we do not understand nor are we able to understand until the right time comes. so we have to let go and trust that God will bring everything to pass. and when they do, we’ll be okay.

    November 4, 2014 at 5:17 PM
  • Reply Rackell Lumberio-Villareal

    Remember Mommy, we are not superwoman. Napapagod rin tayo. Just believe in God, because I know he has a plan for us. Just think na hindi naman ibibigay ni Lord yung isang problem sa atin kung hindi natin kayang i-handle yun.

    God Bless you! :)

    November 4, 2014 at 4:55 PM
  • Reply The Vanilla Housewife

    Sending you lots of virtual hugs and energy! And keep on trusting in Him. Aja! :)

    November 4, 2014 at 3:13 PM
  • Reply rozellevendil

    I understand how you feel mommy. Sometimes, even supermoms get exhausted too. But stay strong, focus on your goal, and keep in mind that everything will come to pass. All these things will be over soon, so hang on. You can do it!

    November 4, 2014 at 2:40 PM
  • Reply Michelle Solee (@michisolee)

    I thought we won’t do anything last week because it is sembreak, but the teacher gave two poems that we need to memorize, one in English and one in FIlipino. #bawalmagpahinga.

    I agree, nothing is permanent. When I’m so stressed, I always remind myself that “this too shall pass.”

    November 4, 2014 at 7:57 AM
    • Reply Kim Reyes

      Sometimes I wish teachers would just give us a break, haha! It wasn’t called a ‘break’ for nothing, right? :D

      November 4, 2014 at 10:32 AM
  • Reply May De Jesus-Palacpac

    What a beautiful blog! Yes, soon, things will be better, Kim. And God is faithful, so fix your eyes on Him over that of your circumstances. :)

    I understand what you mean by missing being full time with the kids. You and I are on the same boat. Just hang in there. :)

    November 4, 2014 at 2:38 AM
    • Reply Kim Reyes

      Thanks May! I don’t pray for difficult times, but somehow, I am grateful that we do encounter challenges every now and then. It keeps us grounded eh- it reminds us that there is Someone bigger, greater than us that we can turn to.

      I’ll be hanging on! I know He will get us through. :)

      November 4, 2014 at 10:28 AM
  • Reply Renz

    Amen. Good things will come :D
    I pray for more love and patience for you. It’s easy to feel guilty when we “lose” it but it only shows we are nothing but human..napapagod din :)

    November 3, 2014 at 9:42 PM
    • Reply Kim Reyes

      Aww, thank you! There comes a time that we really need to be reminded that we are only human. Otherwise, we might work ourselves to death. Lol!

      November 3, 2014 at 9:44 PM

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