Two weeks. We finally had two weeks of much needed rest from school. The whole family badly needed that break after getting sick over and over in the course of three weeks. I don’t think it’s the actual schooling that’s tiring, really. It’s the preparation that starts early in the morning despite The Princess’ call time being 12 noon, the drive to and from school, and work that has to be done late at night to give way for a bit of play time with the minis and bedtime stories. There is barely enough time for rest and leisure except on weekends.
But I’m not complaining. School is important and I cannot not work.
Hence I am thankful for mini vacations from routine like The Princess’ semestral break. Since we don’t have formal schooling to worry about, we had the chance to just enjoy our time. And we did–spending days painting, drawing, making music, dancing, and singing. I sort of miss how I used to have all the time in the world for the minis, but temporary sacrifices have to be made for something better soon.
Soon. Everything will be better soon.
The last four months has been a challenging time for my family. There were issues we had to fix and a mountain of uncertainties and anxieties that filled our hearts and minds. There are moments that everything just becomes too heavy to bear that I snap at my husband or lose patience with the minis. Sometimes, I get angry at myself for not trying harder, or planning better. Perhaps if I did, it wouldn’t be this hard.
“Trust in Him at all times, O people; pour out your heart before Him; God is a refuge for us.” (Psalm 62:8)
But then I remind myself that nothing is permanent; not even our troubles. I just have to stop running away from it and just go through it. I just need to surrender and trust that God has it all figured out.
Because He already got things figured out.
Today, The Princess starts a new semester in school. I love new beginnings. They give me this feeling of being pulled out of the water and taking a breath for the very first time after holding it for so long. I know this marks the start of busy days ahead, but it also means that we our nearing our goal.
And so I welcome this fresh start with open arms, an open mind, and more importantly, an open heart.