I have not written about it here but I’m sure some of you have noticed that one menu item on the right that says Créatif. That, my friends, is the new design and photo/video business I launched with my cousin, Kay Valencia. I grew up really close to Kay’s family. I remember spending summers with them, usually at their photography studio. We were her dad’s models who eventually took more interest on what happens behind the lens.
Last year, we landed our first big gig in Singapore wherein we shot event set ups for a catering company. After that one big gig, work took over so we had to stop. Last month, however, we got together again and started talking seriously about the design and photography business. Come May, we launched Créatif. To kick off our “heart” work as Martine de Luna calls it, we offered to cover the first ever Life Bliss Weekend at Casa Luminaria (wonderful venue for reunions and retreats, btw).
Ladies and gents, this is one retreat you would want to attend. I was there as a photographer, not a participant, but I have been deeply touched by the retreat. The next time they run this, I will surely join!
After taking part of the Life Bliss Weekend, I found myself trying to figure out my life’s purpose. As I told Apa of The Exuberant Life, one of the facilitators of the retreat, I never really thought about my mission. I just got by with life, wandering and unsure about where I really want to be and what I want to do. I mean sure, I love being a mom to my two minis and a wife to Arjay, but I felt like there is something more about myself and my mission that I haven’t fully explored. The retreat urged me to reflect, to re-evaluate my life.
I cried as I reflected. I sort of have an idea of my purpose: for my life to be an inspiration so I can uplift other people’s spirits when they are in the lowest point in their lives. I do not write about it on the blog, although I would love to in the future, but I am the kind of person that people go to for advice. And they do say that they feel a lot better after talking to me. The only problem is, while I am able to do this for other people, I seem to find it hard to do it for myself.
I have always had a problem with my confidence – or maybe, self-love. I do not think of myself to be enough; I feel like I always need to give more… which often burns me out because when I think I have not given enough, I start to feel worthless, lost, and hopeless. I start to blame myself for the not-so-wonderful things going on. And on really bad days, I feel self-hate.
How, then, can I give hope if I find myself hopeless?
Fast forward to Tuesday night. Arjay took me out for a movie night. We first watched Godzilla, but since we weren’t wow-ed by the movie, the husband bought tickets to the next show – Amazing Spider-Man 2. I’m glad we watched it because it reminded me of my word for 2014, which, I believe, is related to my purpose.
It’s easy to feel hopeful on a beautiful day like today, but there will be dark days ahead of us too, and they’ll be days where you feel all alone, and that’s when hope is needed most. No matter how buried it gets, or how lost you feel, you must promise me, that you will hold on to hope. Keep it alive, we have to be greater than what we suffer. My wish for you, is to become hope, people need that, and even if we fail, what better way is there to live. – Gwen Stacy, Amazing Spider-Man 2
Gwen Stacy’s speech is my most favorite part in the film. She is right when she says that hoping is easy during a beautiful day where the sky is blue and the sun is shining brightly upon us. Real hope, however, comes and is most needed during the darkest of days. I guess that is what I need to realize so I can achieve my life’s purpose: to hope for myself, even when I feel like I have hit rock bottom, so I can continue being hope for others.
I have a long way to go to fully live and breathe my life’s purpose, but I am extremely grateful that the Life Bliss Retreat got me started on my road towards it.
Have you found your life’s purpose? Let’s talk about it in the comments section below!